There Is No Condom For The Heart

Think you fooled everyone around you? Not. Your antics are only quite believable to some people who doesn't know you personally. Quite disappointing no one ever thought of challenging your credibility.

What prompted you to do this?

What's the motivation behind it?

Who are you?

Who are they?

Why are they ALL against you now?

Why didn't you tell her to confront him?

Let me tell you a story:

There's this girl who's sooooo in love with this boy. Let's call them Patz and Madz. Madz broke up with Patz after quite some time because of the atrocity of her behavior and her unwillingness to change or improve it. Sino ba naman may gusto na pangit ugali ng girlfriend mo, hindi ba?

Of course, Patz could not accept it. She's willing to do almost any deed just to have Madz back. To catch Madz's attention, she created an FB account named "Iwantu Back B" (http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001691518454), who has 10 friends, all dummies except for Cedric Wascat. It didn't work. So to make Madz jealous, she created an account that would pose as her boyfriend and named it Stephen Drew Garcia (account no longer exist after serving it's purpose and failed). To prove that Drew really exist, she created an additional dummy named Nicki Jamin (http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001881911017&etrk=ffa), who now has only 30 friends (consists of Simply Hospital players who you'll find on the SH Add Me Up Wall, few friends from highschool & a few dummies of her own), and added Drew to her friends' accounts na alam niya ang mga password. Still, it didn't work. 'Til Patz found out that Madz have already moved on at may iba ng girlfriend. That's when she started to plot against them.

Perfect. Madz didn't know that time that Drew was just an imaginary person. Thought that Patz had already moved on. Thought that pwede naman na pagsamahin ang past and future sa iisang group dahil parehas naman na sila masaya sa mga buhay-buhay nila. Hoax.

Patz found an accomplice, planted a seed of doubt on Madz's partner and destroyed them. Then Patz told Madz that Drew's been using her account and that maybe Drew said something to Madz's partner that may have triggered the breakup. Even asking if he's ok, blah blah-- In short, Patz put the blame on Drew and siya ngayon ang nagcocomfort kay Madz, wow!

You edited some of your posts 'coz they didn't know you're his ex-girlfriend. You left that part out of the convo, right?! Kasi magiging clear sa kanila kung ano talaga yung motive mo. I bet wala ni isa sa kanila ang friends mo sa MySpace.

Kasinungalingan na you're a lezbo? Hmm...

• padme_armidala (10:07:27 PM): ME LESBIAN
• padme_armidala (10:08:10 PM): SO DAHIL DUN KAYA AYAW K NYA P-ADD SAKIN?
• padme_armidala (10:08:20 PM): SA KASINUNGALINGAN N UN
• padme_armidala (10:08:59 PM): SO YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME?
• padme_armidala (10:09:10 PM): NOT THE LESBY THING HA
• padme_armidala (10:09:17 PM): HAHAHA COZ IM NOT LIKE THAT
• padme_armidala (10:09:26 PM): WHAT DID MADZ TOLD YOU ABOUT ME?
• padme_armidala (10:09:32 PM): JUST THAT? SUS
• padme_armidala (10:09:37 PM): PAILALIM TUMIRA MAP
• padme_armidala (10:09:41 PM): AMP*

http://profiles.friendster.com/5297257

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Segue-- A week before this, you heard your friends talking about you and yes, mga nawawala nilang mga gamit & pera & that ikaw lang ang laging present & natitira sa room kung saan last na nandun mga iyon & for some instances, may nakakita pa ng mga gamit na iyon na once mo na ginamit after nung mawala sa kanila.

You tried to destroy them too by making stories na pwede ikagalit nila sa isa't isa. It didn't work. Your reputation was already tarnished long before. So you left the group & try destroying them by telling other people fabricated stories. Another wow!

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Your mistake? You confided what you did to your 'best friend', who squealed everything to us. 

Your motive? Doesn't take a genius to figure this one out.

*What prompted you to do this?

*What's the motivation behind it?

Simple lang, love, bitterness and revenge...

• padme_armidala (10:00:42 PM): AHAHAHA IKAW ANG INIWAN MAS MASAKIT UN
• padme_armidala (10:00:47 PM): IKAW UNG NI-REJECT
• padme_armidala (10:00:59 PM): HAY NAKU..
• padme_armidala (10:01:11 PM): PERO GANYAN ANG NAFEFEEL MO
• padme_armidala (10:22:16 PM): pero nasaktan ka?
• padme_armidala (11:01:08 PM): kasi na-hurt ka?
• padme_armidala (11:01:09 PM): aminin mo

At hindi din ba kahina-hinala na a few days after ng big fight/confrontation nyo nung last week ng November, gumawa ka pa ng dummy account named Janet Jiao (http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001889080189), who now has only 46 friends (consists of Simply Hospital players who you'll find on the SH Add Me Up Wall, a friend from highschool & her dummies) and befriend him on Facebook to spy on him? You knew exactly who to add and spy to, yet you pretended like you don't know him or his name?

There you are, trying to catch his attention:

• padme_armidala (9:35:19 PM): HONGA ANO UNG ALAM MONG REAL ACCT NI MADRIGAL
• padme_armidala (9:35:21 PM): LOLZ
• padme_armidala (9:35:25 PM): AHAHAHA
• padme_armidala (9:35:27 PM): =))
• padme_armidala (9:40:36 PM): e2 b ung cnsbi mong rockwell ?
• padme_armidala (9:40:37 PM):http://www.facebook.com/************
• padme_armidala (9:41:33 PM): hindi visible sakin ang wall nya eh haha..

*Who are you?

After mapagtagpi-tagpi namin lahat ng mga kwento mo sa'min about sa buhay mo, narealize lang namin na hindi ka nga namin kilala talaga. Lahat ng kwento mo about sa buhay mo is pinagtagpi-tagping kwento ng mga buhay ng mga taong nasa paligid mo.

• juane_madrey1217 (10:33:07 PM): may namatay ba kayong kamag-anak?

-Wait, don't tell me nagpanggap kang kamag-anak mo ang ex mo? Wala kang pinsan na kaguild, kasama sa tropa mo or even sa loob ng subdivision na tinitirhan mo (well, no one has seen kahit sino sa'min yung kinikwento mong kamag-anak mong taga-phase 1B & taga Sta. Fe)! Pati iyon imbento lang ng imagination mo.

*Who are they?

*Why are they ALL against you now?

Sila lang naman yung mga taong halos araw-araw mo nakakasama sa buhay mo, mga taong nagcare sa'yo at tumanggap ng buo kahit sablay ang ugali mo. Is it still surprising kung lahat sila tumalikod sa'yo? Tinawag mo pa silang mga "nakikialam at sumbongera". Obviously, nasa iyo na yung mali. And now, they're fed up.

Bakit mo tinanggal mo yung option para sa kanila na makapagcomment sa wall mo kung wala kang itinatago? Bakit mo rin hinide ang wall mo sa iba sa'min? In some case, binura mo pa sa friends list mo? Kung sa tingin mo ikaw ang nasa tamang lugar at brinainwash lang ang mga kaibigan mo, bakit hindi ka humarap sa kanila at kausapin sila at sabihin kung ano ang totoong nangyari? Wala ka naman dapat ikatakot kung alam mong totoo mga pinagsasabi mo hindi ba? May mga sarili naman din silang pag-iisip para timbangin kung ano ang tama at kung ano ang mali. At kung nasa tama ka, madali lang para sa iyo ang iprove iyon.

Tapos magpopost ka kunyari ng ganito para makita ng mga taong pinagsabihan mo ng sinasabi mong 'totoo'?

*Why didn't you tell her to confront him?

And if she confronts him, it would have ruined your plan. Your only chance to get back with him. So you insisted not to. Eh kaso, wala ka na rin naman na babalikan either way eh. 

• padme_armidala (10:01:37 PM): PERO WAG KA MAGBABANGGIT OR MAGBIBIGAY NG HINT NA ALAM MO NA
• padme_armidala (10:01:42 PM): PLEASE LANG ELLA..
• padme_armidala (10:01:59 PM): AND DONT EVEN TRY TO CONFRONT HER
• padme_armidala (10:02:25 PM): BASTA PROMISE WAG KA MAGBIBIGAY NG HINT OR TATANONG SA KNYA
• padme_armidala (10:02:28 PM): NA MAY ALAM KA
• padme_armidala (10:25:08 PM): ella ginawa ko un kasi naawa ako sayo so please sana ikaw dn maawa ka sakin hahaha
• padme_armidala (11:12:09 PM): ella babe wala lalaabas ha or even hint

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Medyo gets pa kita kung bakit mo ginawa iyan eh. Mahal na mahal mo, but you couldn't accept the fact na inayawan ka na, iniwan at pinagpalit sa iba. That's when you turned bitter and then your relationship was poisoned. You can't handle breakups and rejection. But what was worse than losing him was the horrible realization that a big part of you went with him. He took something away from you that you will never get back. And because of that, you were not able to forget him that easy. 

I wish that somehow, you had been aware of the consequences of your actions before you let your hormones take over. It's because if you're too immature to deal with those explosive drives, it tends to dominate your life and unpleasant memories tends to damage your character. It's part of a relationship, yes, but not synonymous to the relationship itself. Just because you two are engaged on that, doesn't mean na yun na yung pangrepair nyo ng problems nyo. Hiwalay iyon. Momentary pleasure was there, but to tell you honestly, a lot of people notice that your relationship was a miserable one. I suggest you start to search for a logical explanation or a reason for what happened. Don't blame others for causing you that grief. Acceptance is the first key. It will bring you an inner peace and tranquility instead of anger and resentment.

Don't lose something so precious in a thoughtless way.

Next time na magmahal ka, learn how to treat them right. Hindi yung ganito:

Ginamit mo pa account ni Grace para i-like ang post mo.

About the issue with your friends, i don't get why you have to create such lies. Ano iyon, to gain respect and attention?

Marami ka ng nasira. And kung masaya ka sa mga nangyari at sa mga ginawa mo, well then GOOD FOR YOU. Masama ang masyadong masaya. Sa ginagawa mo, sarili mo lang ang lalo mong sinisira. Next time you do something, make sure kaya mong panindigan. I hope you can say those things straight to my face one day. And if ever that time comes, who knows baka mapaniwala mo pa ako. 

Now, I'll ask you one thing: WAS IT ALL WORTH IT?

My advice pa rin: find the meaning of ACCEPTANCE, learn it and apply it to your daily life. One day, you'll realize how much you've lost. Well, I guess that would be too late.

Do not dwell on the past. Pinapahirapan mo lang sarili mo. I hope you could find peace and comfort sa mga bago mong kaibigan.

But for now,

...Let go...Move on...

Allegedly and Actually

Ito yung house na niclaim mong sa'yo nung hinatid ka ng mga friends mong taga Perpetual: 

Ito naman yung kung san ka talaga nakatira:

The story: Inihatid ka ng mga friends mo from Perpetual to Pacita, sa bahay nyo. Nung nasa kanto ka na, itinuro mo ang bahay ni Loren Cole Magpantay, yung friend mong nakatira dun sa malaking bahay na kahilera lang ng bahay nyo, mga 6 haouses away from sa inyo mismo. Nung makita ka ng mommy mo at kinausap ka, tinanong ng mga friends mo kung sino yun, ang sabi mo sa kanila katulong nyo. Tinawag mo pa si Loren at pumasok pa sa loob ng gate. Tinignan mo pa yung sasakyan ng mga friends mo at nang makaalis na nga sila, lumabas ka na rin ng gate at saka umuwi sa bahay nyo.

You also claim na bahay nyo yung tinitirhan nyo na nasa picture sa baba ng bahay ni Loren. The truth: Before kayo tumira diyan, sa riles talaga kayo nakatira. Magmimigrate na sa Guam yung original na nakatira sa bahay na yan kaya naghahanap sila ng caretaker kasi away nila ipagbili yung bahay nila para may mauuwian sila sa Pinas just in case gusto nila magbakasyon. Your mom qualified as katiwa-tiwala na tagapagbantay since kagagaling lang nya nun na nagtrabaho as nursing aide sa Saudi Arabia and she's looking for work naman din.

Yes, nursing aide and not registered nurse na gaya ng claims mo. And yes, hindi nyo talaga bahay yan although dyan ka na talaga lumaki. And hindi nyo rin kamag-anak yung mga nasa Guam gaya ng claims mo ulit. Anyone who have doubts sa mga sinabi ko dito, just comment sa baba and I can give you the exact address and ihaharap ko pa kayo sa mga kapitbahay nila na doon na talaga nakatira at mas nauna pa sa kanila at alam ang background nila. Anyway, isa sa mga kapitbahay nyo rin kasi ang nagsuggest na mommy mo ang i-hire as caretaker.

You also claim na may bahay ang daddy mo sa Parkhomes, Muntinlupa. Na nakikitira lang dun yung tita mo and that hindi kayo pwede dun kasi hindi sila magkasundo ng mommy mo. It's the other way around actually. Sa tita mo, na kapatid ng daddy mo yung bahay na yun. Nakikitira lang dun ang daddy mo simula ng nagseparate sila ng mommy mo.

Ito yung pc na niclaim mong sa'yo pero ang totoo is pc ito sa bahay ng 'best friend' mo:

Dito ka madalas na nagamit ng internet din na inaabot pa hanggang madaling-araw at wala kang pakialam kahit tulog na lahat ng tao sa kanila or kahit nandun pa yung daddy nila na bihira naman pa kung magpunta. Dyan ka rin sa left side nagtataktak ng yosi mo, sa may tiles pa mismo, kahit bagong linis ang bahay at sa gilid mo lang ng bintana nilalagay yung mga cigarette butts tapos hindi mo naman nililinis after. Galing mo rin no?

Ito yung view(all possible angles) sa harap ng pc na iyan na makikita sa webcam pag nagamit ka:

Ito naman yung pc na gamit mo sa araw-araw:

Yes, internet shop lang sa tabi ng gasolinahan nyo ang madalas mong puntahan. Open from 9:00am to 11:00pm. Those who are already inside before 11:00pm can use the pc 'til 12:30am.

padme_armidala (10:48:28 PM): wala pala ako web lols

padme_armidala (10:48:33 PM): bukas web ako haha

padme_armidala (10:48:41 PM): nsa tatay ko un web cam eh

The story: You don't have any pc, ever. Sa shop ka lang lagi o nakiki-internet sa bahay ng mga friends mo ever since. Ayan oh, bata-bata ka pa nga dyan nasa internet shop ka na. Inaabot ka pa nga ng hanggang umaga sa kung saan-saang internet shop kasi hanggang 12:30am lang yung nandyan sa kanto nyo. That's your life, pagkagising ng hapon, pupunta ka sa tindahan nyo ng gasolina at mag-aayos ng napagbentahan na diaryo. Kasabay na dun ang kupit na hindi bababa ng 50 pesos. Pagkatapos nun, yosi na sa Mommy Love Store na katabi lang din ng computer shop then internet na after. Minsan natatapos ka na lang din ng 9 pm ng gabi tapos lalabas ka lang para kunin ang tricycle nyo para sunduin na yung mommy mo sa kanto kasama ng mga paninda nyo tapos kain sa bahay then diretso na ulit sa computer shop after. Kung hindi ka pa nakuntento sa pagnenet dun, lilipat ka sa Pacita 2 para magnet. Dun sa after ng riles, may computer shop dun or doon sa Pacita Ave na katapat ng 7-11. Dun hanggang 4:30 am bukas ang computer shop. Magbubukas ulit ng 6am. Perfect para makapagpretend kang you have a pc at home, right? Uuwi ka ng between 5-5:30am para ihatid ang mommy mo at mga paninda sa tindahan nyo then uwi na para matulog. Kaya hapon ka na nagigising. Mommy mo pa nga nagluluto ng lunch nyo eh. Gigising ka na lang para kumain at magagalit ka pa pag wala naluto pagkain at pupunta na lang sa kung kani-kanino bahay ng friends mo para makikain.

And this is your gasoline station beside the internet shop(left):

At syempre, may inuupahan pang katulong ang mommy mo kasi hindi naman nya kaya mag-isa dun. P150/day ang rate kung mag-isa lang yung nagbabantay. P150 & P125/day naman pag dalawa yung nakuha na tagapagbantay.

Oh, hey...There you are:

Nakasama pa pala sa photo yung tricycle nyo na nabili 2 years ago ng second ba or third hand for P25K.

Obviously, nag-aayos ka na ng diaryo dyan. Sa left side kasi ng stall nyo nakapwesto yung mga diaryo, sa right side naman yung mga 2T-Triple Oil (the yellow ones). Binibilang kung ilan yung nabenta for the whole day kasi dadaanan na mamaya hapon ng nagdedeliver ng diaryo. Oppss, kukupit na yan after! :)

Let's compute yung kinikita ng tindahan nyo ha? Let's say nakakabenta kayo ng 10 cases a day pag may pasok ang estudyante sa National Highschool na malapit lang sa inyo (kung saan ka nag-aral ng highschool 5 years ago). 12L laman ng 1 case and 5 pesos per bottle ang patong nyo. So it's 600 pesos per day, plus gawin na lang din natin na 100 pesos kunyari kinikita nyo sa diaryo. So 700 pesos minus yung sweldo ng katulong ng mommy mo. Mga around P425-550 na sana take home ng mommy mo everyday.

Let's compute naman your kupit per day. P15/hr ang rent ng pc sa kanto nyo. P25 pag 2hrs. You're averaging 8hrs/day, maximum mo kasi is inaabot hanggang madaling-araw kung wala kang lakad na inuman na pupuntahan. Plus kung anu-ano pa binibili mo sa tindahan ni Mommy Love: yosi which is P20 yata yung 10's na pack, softdrinks, chichirya, etc. So let's say na P50 na lang yun. P150/day ang average ng gastos mo per day. Why did I say kupit sa start ng paragraph na ito? It's because your mom doesn't give you kahit magkano, barya-barya lang if ever, like pambili ng merienda. We all know that, kahit mga kapitbahay mo and mga nagbabantay sa tindahan nyo sa may kanto. So saan mo pa sasabihing galing ang pera mo? What more kung may lakad ka pa or inom na pupuntahan di ba?

Talk about walang ginagawa sa bahay! Hmm, that's you right? :)

It isn't a bad thing na mangarap at magkaroon ng mga bagay na inaambisyon mong magkaroon ka. Sana may ginagawa ka rin para maabot yung mga gusto mong yun. Pwede ka naman pag-aralin ng mommy mo ng college dun na malapit lang din dyan sa inyo. Kaso ayaw mo kasi sabi mo 'Cheap!', nahihiya ka na pag tinanong ng mga friends mo kung saan ka at dyan lang yung sasabihin mo. Pwede ka rin naman magtrabaho or tulungan mo mommy mo imbes na kumuha pa siya ng katulong nya sa tindahan at iuuwi nyo na lang ng buo yung dapat sana kikitain nyo. Hindi mo pa rin ba nakikita kung bakit 'Mali na lang ako lagi sa paningin ni Mommy?'. Are you that dense?

Matanda na ang mommy mo, suppose to be ikaw na ang nagtratrabaho at bumubuhay sa kanya. Imbes na ipon na lang nya yun kinikita nya, kinukupitan mo pa. So paano na lang siya pag tumanda at magkasakit, eh wala naman mahita sa'yo? Pabigat ka pa. Wala din kayong properties na naipundar kundi yung 2 tricycle nyo. So kuntento ka na sa ganyang buhay mo? Internet-kain-gala-tulog, sarap ba? Manira ng buhay ng mga taong magmamalasakit na pagsabihan ka?

Kung gusto mo maabot o makuha ang isang bagay, paghirap mo o pagsikap mo maabot o makuha. Hindi yung pinaghirapan mo manakaw o inembentong kwento para maging angat ka sa paningin ng iba. You know the term 'Nagmamayaman'? That's what you are. Pero when you look closely and study your case, sakit na iyan kasi mula pa pala pagkabata mo ganyan ka na. 

Take this as an opportunity to start anew. Now that your secrets are revealed, you've got nothing to hide na. We still got a lot of secrets to unfold if you don't stop. Hindi pa ito ang lahat-lahat ng mga kasinungalingan mo na na-uncover namin.

Gaya nga ng sabi ng 'best friend' mo na nakapost sa wall mo nung May 7, 2010:

Walang lihim na hindi nabubunyag, hindi ba Abby Rallos? :)